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Decisions, Turning Corners, and Not Knowing Where I’m Heading

This week was insane. I had two job interviews, one on Tuesday and one on Wednesday, and both of them could shift a lot about what is coming next for me. On top of that, my current job assigned me a special project that demanded way more time and attention than usual.

I also decided to start posting consistently on IG and TikTok. That was a massive decision for me, partly because posting and editing take A LOT of vulnerability, time, and energy, and partly because those platforms honestly scare me. They feel official, serious, and very public. Then there is this one email I am waiting on that could change even more.

So to say the least, it has been a lot, and somehow the overall feeling has still been positive. It feels like the floodgates to something is starting to open. 

During this week’s fast, the idea that kept coming up for me was the impact of decisions and how they shape your life far beyond the moment you make them. 

I have made some really good decisions in my past and some that were not so good.

One that stands out is my decision to stay private regarding my creativity. My Cancer Sun pulls me toward a quiet, protected life, yet my Leo ascendant seems to want something different, something people expect, but I’m not always comfy with. Most people would never guess how reserved or shy I can be. Only my partner and family usually see that side.

My decision to start sharing my cycling journey online has been incredible. If I had not chosen to do that, I think I would be looking at these job opportunities with a completely different perspective. 

Cycling has become more than a hobby, and sharing it has unlocked a creative part of me that has been caged for years.

I can be a loner sometimes, but I have to admit that connecting with people IRL really matters to me. Since the pandemic and the years I spent living abroad, so much of my life has been either in another new country or behind a remote job screen. I have had unforgettable experiences, yet I regret not documenting them. I regret not having a channel or a blog where I shared what I was going through in real time.

Writing this now feels like my second chance. 

It feels like I am finally letting things be seen while they are happening, even if it is imperfect, messy, or full of growth like the 12 week cycle fitness series I started last week. 

If you are reading this, thank you. If no one is, I’ll let this serve as a reminder to myself: Angaza I’m proud of you for sharing, keep it up! I know its scary, but you got this lol… 

And as always, eMbracE tYpos…